knowing the difference

As most of you have certainly figured out by now, I’ve recently found myself on a path of self-reflection and spiritual discovery. It’s a fragile spot to be in, but it’s something I need to work through. So, thank you for bearing with me…

Today’s injection of introspection? Wisdom… and lack thereof.

Where am I wise? // aeon-judgement

I’ve always considered myself to be a terrible judge of character. If someone around me has an ulterior motive, or is planning a leg-pulling, I’m a goner. A situation can blow up and I won’t see it coming until the debris smacks me in the face. And by the time a decision needs to be made, I’m often too emotionally invested to be fair.

You can imagine my shock when this card turned up. Common sense? Bwahahahahaaaaaa! Forgiveness? Double-bwaahahahahaaahaaaaa!! And the ability to understand… well, at least I do try on this point.

Perhaps with regards to my own wisdom, this has more to do with hearing a call to knowledge and my own inner awareness, as well as being open to it in the first place.

Where do I need to learn? // 6 of swords

My lifelong mantra has been that there’s always more to learn. And I need to learn *everything* I can get my hands on about this! I’m not willing to make this major spiritual paradigm shift without more answers.

I’m a scientist at heart. I need to learn how things work. How challenges and thoughts interact. This card traditionally indicates a transition from a difficult situation to *something* better. My favorite deck actually ties this in with Science… which has quite perplexed me until now. Curiosity, knowledge, and mental exploration with a purposeful, rational, objective mind… everything is better when you understand the story from start to end. I love it!

I need to focus on learning about this new consciousness that has been opened to me, true. I’m fascinated by the idea that we are all linked so directly to God, but I’m having difficulty sitting down and focusing on any one thing to learn. The danger of having an e-reader, I’m afraid, is too many free samples and too little incentive to read past page 20.

I do believe that a Plan is in order:

  1. Finish my “assigned reading” :) of the The Ra Material: The Law of One (“cliff’s notes” *are* a little easier to swallow than the source materials!).
  2. Choose and then READ one of the books that have so captured my attention (The ESP Enigma: The Scientific Case for Psychic Phenomena, Transcending the Speed of Light, … there are some others, I know, but they slip my mind and I’m afraid to pull out my iPad right now or I’ll lose myself!)
  3. I also need to finish reading through Catherine’s Beyond the Celtic Cross book.

*** Can anyone recommend a good book on quantum physics? ***

Serenity Prayer (good for all occasions!)

Grant me the serenity;
To accept the things I cannot change;
The courage, to change the things I can;
And the wisdom, to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.

~ Reinhold Niebuhr

* This post was inspired by Donnaleigh’s speed tarot post of 01/14/11.

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